Wednesday, 23 September 2015
I've been possibly the worlds worst blogger this year. I've been posting once a week, if that, and feel completely out of the blogging world and community.
I don't even feel like it's right to try and make excuses, but basically life got busy and my YouTube Channel grew a little bit so most of my time has been spent uploading two videos a week over there. I've been blogging for over three years and making videos for about a year properly. Doing something new and challenging has taken over my time and the blog has kind of faded away into the background.
The less I blogged the worse I felt about myself and my blog, it's kind of like that snowball effect where it's got to the point where my 'blog self confidence' is at a very low point. I've been struggling with some personal issues as well lately, I've been feeling quite down and worthless, so the last thing I've wanted to do is face the reality of my pretty crap blog!
I considered just deleting this website and moving on from it, but I still have so much love for blogging. I know my blog is at best average, and the lack of effort I've put into it means it really is kind of a waste of internet space at the moment. But I don't want to throw something away that I've worked on and has been a huge part of my life for over three years.
I think one of the hardest parts about blogging is trying not to compare yourself to others, I've watched other bloggers achieve great things and grow brilliantly whilst I've stayed static for so long. Meaning my motivation and passion has faded. When I've had time to blog I've just put it off in favour of other things.
I've accepted that my blog will always just be what it is and isn't a high profile/glossy/top blog that we all know and read. However I have a passion for writing and am going to try and jumpstart my blogging game again.
My lack of blogging the past few months means I don't actually think anyone reads anymore, but if you do then thank you so much. It means more than you'll ever know and I'm very sorry for being incredibly awful lately!
I'm still very active everywhere else on the internet, just not where the attention is needed. Here's hoping I'll be back in the swing of things very soon.